Feeeeeeelings..

*sing song voice* I can't deal with my feeeeeelings... They are driving me insaaaaaaane.. *

So it's 1.08am and I still haven't packed... or sorted anything out... and I have no real desire to.. well, I want it done but I just can't face doing it right now.. I'm in the 'dark place'.. I'm not a fan of the dark place, but I'm hoping in about 16hrs I will be happy. I will be with my boy.. my boy makes me happy.. not happy that I have to share a room with him, but happy all the same. I've missed him.. he brings me out of myself.. I need that.. I need to have some fun.. and get out of this soul sucking house..

Apparently there's a ghost in my house.. some Edwardian lady.. in my room.. and kind of in the living room. My lady got a bit weird today and informed me of this. Not that it's the first time she's cropped up.. A few months ago my mum and my bro's gf heard some lady talking to my niece over the baby monitor and nearly shat themselves. She was in my room. Yay me. My room has always been deathly cold.. figures. Though it may not be my room much longer since my mum is giving me her room to see if I can sleep better in there, yayaaah! Double bed here I come!

Short and sweet

I love the Dark Side of the Moon album. I've been listening to it a lot recently. It's great just to chill out to. It would be even better to listen to high, but I haven't got round to that yet.. I have made this song my ringtone though.

Anyway, that wasn't what I was going to say.. What I was going to say was..

My hair is sexy. That is all.

Um.. ok..

Wow.. what the hell was that? That was some bad shit. These people are meant to be 12 of the top 36 singers in the country.. wtf happened there? It was so disappointing. You know it's bad when Tatiana is one of the better ones. The song choices.. Jesus! Ugh ok, here we go..

Alexis - She was ok. Aretha though.. interesting choice. It was pretty boring tbh, she's done better.
Ann Marie - Aretha again.. why why why?! She has a nice voice but she can't pull that off. Should have taken Kara's advice..
Anoop De-doop - I don't know why but he reminds me of David Hernandez, esp in his first audition. I like Anoop but it was a bit of a weird song choice for him.
Brent - I don't even know who this dude is, but his song sucked. His vocals were ok, but the song itself was balls.
Casey - What was up with those facial expressions? And why in gods name would you pick a Police song?
Danny - I love you. You are awesome. Gives me tingles every time. Winner fo' sho!
Jackie - That bitch be crazy! She kind of annoys me but she was entertaining.
Michael - I love this man, he's so cute I just want to give him a big hug. But his performance.. arg! He's so good a cappella, what the hell!
Ricky - I've never heard him sing before but he's gooood ja. Wild card maybe?
Stephen - This dude has a beautiful voice but his song did nothing for him. You do not touch Michael Jackson.
Stevie - Oh dear.. that was baaaad.. like real bad.. What happened to this girl? *sigh* I liked her.
Tatiana - Ok what the hell happened to her? She's freaking me out with the subdued act. She was surprisingly good though. Well.. when I say good, I mean not that bad.

All in all a pretty crap start. Predictions - Danny, Alexis and Anoop-de-doop are going on to the top 12, but then again you never know with you people..

To end, I have one last thing to say.. COME BACK SEASON 7! I miss my Carly.. :(

EDIT Thurs: Meh two out of three aint bad. Michael was my no.4 anyway.

PS. z0mfg I love Carly Smithson! Her and Michael are so cute together.. if only she wasn't already married. And is it just me or has she turned into a young Ann Wilson (lead singer of Heart)? Gothic with that big old instrument of hers.. identical I tell thee.

PPS. Who chooses the people for the wild card round? I want Ricky, Stephen, Stevie and Anoop-de-doop in it.

V Day

Happy Valentine's for all those who have someone special in their lives :)

So as you know today is Valentine's Day, and I have a date! She's cute as hell. She has short dark hair and gorgeous brown eyes that make me melt, and she smells so good I just want to kiss her all the time! I have the whole night planned out. I'm going to cook for her.. her favourite.. Then we're going to cuddle up and watch a movie.. And then I'm going to take all her clothes off....... Bath her, change her nappy and put her to bed... Yes this is my 6 month old niece we're talking about. I have the pleasure of looking after her while everyone else goes out and gets loved up. Yay me. Coz I'm the sad lonely single one who'll be sitting at home.. alone.. so why not give me the child eh? But I suppose it is the anniversary of when my brother proposed to his gf so I can forgive him.

I proposed once..

Secrets and pies

I miss playing this on rockband.. *le sigh*

I've got a secret.. a dirty, dirty little secret.. for your eyes only.. come closer.. cloooser.. Haagen-Dazs limited edition caramel biscuits and cream is fucking SEXUAL!! Ohhhh-my-god it's like a huge screaming orgasm in my mouth! In fact, I think it may actually be better.. I know I know that's not possible, but it's pretty damn close.. like, fo' reals.. oh my it's soo gooooooooodddd!!^*&(^%........ Ok I have to put this away before I eat the whole tub..

*Composes oneself*

So today was a rather productive day. I.. shit what did I do earlier?.. um.. oh yeah I did nothing.. um.. anyway, tonight (or this afternoon depending on which way you are inclined) my bro, his gf and my baby came over for some tea, but you know that wasn't very interesting so lets skip to what I did a few hours ago, which also wasn't very interesting, but I'm going to talk about it anyway. My old Sony Ericsson, which technically isn't mine considering someone I used to work with gave me it, but for the benefit of the story lets say that it's mine.. So, when I was in the land of snow last year with nothing to do, I downloaded a shit load of pretty themes (and games) for my phone which made it a tasty little number and kept me occupied for hours and hours and hours. But, unfortunately that phone decided to die for no good reason in September as soon as I got off the plane in Scotland, so I've been using a spare Nokia my dad had for the last few months. But it's just not the same.. I miss my old phone and my pretty themes :( Soo, I decided to have a wee gander round t'internet to see what I could find. Not a lot apparently.. Now, I don't know if themes for Nokia's are just gash in general, or if I was on a particularly terrible site, but it was grim. I got mildly excited coz I thought I found my favourite one from my old phone, but no.. no no noooo.. the wallpaper was the same, but the rest was different and ugly and animated.. ugh.. I'm so disappointed. I really need to get my finger out of my ass and buy and new one, but I don't know what to get. I was dead set on the Sony Ericsson C905 a while back, then I almost got an iphone for some god awful reason (a moment of insanity obviously) and then I thought about the LG Viewty for a bit, but now I don't have a shitter. I still kinda want a Sony Ericsson coz I like them and they have awesome cameras, but I don't know. I think I need to go down to my friend at O2 and play with them all. That would require me getting out of bed before 2pm tho so we'll see..

A skip down memory lane

Wow... I actually used to be funny and interesting.. what happened there?! I've just been reading through some of my old posts after some dirty little perv searching for 'teenagerbutfucking' stumbled across my blog and found this. Quite disappointing I'm sure unless you like listening to me rant about Harry Potter or the sight of Daniel Radcliffe's tight ass.. But he obviously didn't stay too long. Oh well. But I digress.. I had a read through January 2007, you know when I used to be mildly entertaining and happy.. oh you don't remember that?.. Yeah, it has been a while.. I could probably pinpoint the exact post that I lost my sense of self and became a boring bastard, but I couldn't really be arsed reading through two years worth of posts.. *20mins later* Hmm, there actually weren't as many as I thought.. Wow, 2008 wasn't a good year for me.. Well.. I got to live with my gf for 6 months which was awesome at the time, but I completely lost myself in the process. I really need to rediscover that person.. she wasn't too bad. Maybe my happy pills will help me with that.. or, they will make me even more psychotic than I already am.. and fat.. I don't want to be fat.. that's why I stayed away from antidepressants.. plus I read the side effects on wikipedia and it scared the shit out of me. But we shall see.. I want to ask my voodoo lady first, see what she thinks. She is the knower of all.. If only she could tell me what I want to do with my life.. Coz atm I'm stuck. I need to find my direction in life.. Jesus I've become a boring depressive bastard again.. sorry.. positive thoughts positive thoughts, rainbow positive thoughts.. yeaaaah I have nothing..

EDIT: When I say my Voodoo lady, I don't actually mean Voodoo.. just in case you were like "omg she's actually gone insane, she does voodoo now".. She's my Craniosacral therapist.. but I swear she's psychic.. she knows everything.. so I call her my Voodoo lady. Just in case you were wondering.